Monday, September 8, 2014

Pacemaker

As much as I try to be a process person...I'm just not. I can't help but love results. I need them...to feel centered and "on track". It's so hard for me to enjoy the right now without leaping into a time table for completing a task or project. Whether it's a favored activity like drawing, baking or party planning or one that sucks the life out of me like kids' homework, laundry and dirty dishes - it doesn't matter.
Without even trying I set challenges and goals for myself.  Because time is important.  There are only so many hours in the day. This is probably why I enjoy baking so much.  Follow the recipe and you'll be rewarded for your efforts. In a previous life I worked in  marketing for a franchise called Benjamin Franklin - The Punctual Plumber.  Let's just say -- I fit right in. Then along comes Noah. My firstborn. The one who made me a Mommy. TIME MEANS NOTHING TO HIM. Actually, that's not completely true.  He gets the concept of "five minutes"...

*  We're leaving for school in five minutes.
*  Dinner will be ready in five minutes.
*  In five minutes, you need to get into the shower.

Raising a child with special needs has challenged me to honor the process. When Noah was a toddler, a mother raising her autistic teenage boy, shared that our journey would not be a sprint race... rather, a marathon. I did not like her words...but over the years I've learned to embrace them.

A few weeks ago our family participated in Action for Autism - STL 6th Annual Family Fun Walk.  Thanks to generous family and friends, our team brought in nearly $700 to fund camps, therapies and education for area children and their families affected by autism. 

Normally, the walk involves lots of cajoling and begging on our part to get Noah to complete it. However, this year we heard ZERO complaints from our freckled-face funny man.  In fact, when he finished the race, he turned to Steve and said, "Thanks for taking me, Dad."

It has certainly been a process...but dang! I love the results.


Natalie spreads her smile and wings at the event.
Noah and Natalie stand at Noah's foot marker.
Ninja Noah
We made it!

2 comments:

  1. Oh how I love this post SO much my friend. It is just such an authentic look into your journey as a mom with Noah, and how motherhood changes us, challenges us, inspires us...

    Thank you for sharing such a beautiful and raw part of your heart, and for encouraging all of us to be reminded of the process, not the result! *SO hard*

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    1. Thank you for your continued support and encouragement.

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